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White Blank Page.  Mumford & Sons.  ​ I don’t know why I woke up with this song in my head swirling around, like I had recently been listening to it… yet I hadn’t.  Perhaps someone else was thinking of me and listening to it instead.  Or perhaps it was my mind playing tricks on me… but… no. I don’t want you to go away I wonder what happened to you.  Why this song?  Is this why you are avoiding me?  Are you trying to protect me from yourself? There is a lot of brokenness in this world.  I see more clearly now.  Shanna 2.0 comes with perspective and insight, but it cost.  It took my time in Texas, a spontaneous ‘awakening’, Dark Night of the Soul, or an existential crisis to really define my new self.   I got to know myself along the way, and to fully see humans as they were, not the naive version of the world that Shanna 1.0 knew.   It took me time to integrate the pain, but it has given me compassion that is softe...

✈️ Air Shanna Loyalty Program

✈️ Air Shanna Loyalty Program Slogan: Chosen over time Motto: I’m not for everyone, and everyone doesn’t need to be for me — but closeness is earned through care. Welcome Aboard Welcome to Air Shanna ✈️ Air Shanna is a relationship model built on respect, consistency, and repair — with clear boarding procedures and safety-first policies. Participation is voluntary. Closeness is not automatic. Access deepens over time through demonstrated care. This program exists to protect safety, preserve energy, and allow relationships to grow at a sustainable pace — without guilt, guesswork, or silent resentment. How the Program Works Status is based on patterns , not promises Time and consistency matter more than intensity Movement between tiers is allowed and normal Quiet adjustments are preferred over dramatic conversations Safety always overrides history Loyalty Tiers 🪑 Open Seating “We interact pleasantly, but I don’t rely on you.” Who: Acquaintances, coworkers, new connections Perks: War...

The Noble Gesture and the Invisible Dumpster

 The Noble Gesture and the Invisible Dumpster Human beings, when observed from a safe distance and preferably through very good binoculars, appear to be creatures of astonishing generosity. They will gather in great numbers, often on a Saturday morning when sensible mammals would still be asleep, to release thousands of small rubber ducks into a river and then cheer wildly as gravity performs its usual duties. This is called charity . The ducks are purchased individually, which is important, because nothing says “collective moral purpose” quite like competitive floating. Each duck represents hope, kindness, and a quiet understanding that the duck itself was manufactured in a factory whose carbon footprint could be detected from space by anyone who happened to be looking for it. But this is not discussed, because the ducks are smiling. Humans have discovered that if an action is framed as doing good , it acquires a kind of magical force field. Inside this field, questions about wast...

You want me to be soft...

You want me to be soft.  You associate softness with femininity.  But it isn't safe to be soft.   I was soft once.. Do men not see? I used to make coffee after serving you lunch.  Then make copies and take notes.  So, I would work late and do my actual job while you went home to your families.  Because we're both engineers, but I had to be after hours.  Now I'm too tired to be soft.   You requested for my help specifically on a proposal.  But I found an error in the calculations.  There was no ROI.  Your ego was hurt, and I was kicked off the project.  A week later another man was getting accolades for finding the error and saving the company from moving forward on the project.  I watched and cheered him on for his 'find'.  Then I had to scramble to find another job since his ego was too hurt.   New company.  We disagreed, so you started a smear campaign of me at work.  You convinced peop...

A Decade of Change

 A decade does a lot to a person.  This year I am claiming my first grey hairs, achy joints, weight gain, and chin hairs I get to pluck along the way.  Huzzah!  Oh, dear old age.  You silly goose.   With age hopefully comes wisdom.  Growth.  Healing.  Peace. Every so often I look back at who I was so many years ago and wonder what that version of me was thinking.   I look at where I am now and can say I am happy for what I have endured, though I still wouldn't wish my tribulations upon others.  Through it all, however, my character remains unchanged.  My ideals, my heart, my compassion, my honor, they still pulse strongly through my veins.  Perhaps even more strongly. I overcame.  I was the one that got hit down, repeatedly, and kept standing up.  I was broken.  I didn't understand the dark side of human nature.  I was naive.  Too trusting.  I thought others thought like me... they d...

The Basics of Perception

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The Starting Point It occurred to me over this life that people have different viewpoints. In fact, I feel like life has beaten this into me over and over again.  I have also taken note that a lot of people, not everyone, can sometimes get lost in their own perceptions and fail to see how limited it is.   For example, if I was to ask you what the following was, I would assume most people would call it a triangle.  Indeed, I would agree!   Then, I could ask what the following was: If you are like me, you might call that a square.   The Allegory of the Cave In high school I read a book called Sophie's World.   It was what hooked me into learning about philosophy.  It introduced various concepts, one of my favorites was the Allegory of the Cave.  To copy and paste from the internet: Plato used the analogy of the cave to illustrate his idea of forms. The analogy goes like this: Imagine several prisoners who have been chained up in a cav...

The World of Dr. Strange

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     I don't know about you, but sometimes I run across a scene in a movie where I think, "That's it!  That is the piece I couldn't explain to you before!"  And I watch it, sometimes 20 times over, before I am convinced.  I just never knew how to put the concept into words.        Dr. Strange is one of those movies where I was captivated. Particularly the scene where Dr. Strange meets the Ancient One.  But why?  Because the Ancient One seems to understand the great concept of partial perception.  She holds up a book to Dr Strange.  Within it are various types of maps of the body.       The book the Ancient One holds up has various "maps" of the body.  Some based in science, such as an image of an MRI.  Others are pseudoscience, such as the map for acupuncture or of chakras.  She insists, however, "Each of those maps were drawn by someone who could see in part, but not in whole"....